2 Years!

It is hard to believe it has been TWO YEARS since I wrote “im-leaaaaving-on-a-jet-plane”. There have been many ups and many downs. Many adjustments. Not nearly enough time spent together, and yet – here we are, married a year and a half, and have only spent maybe 40 days or less together.  It sucks, that is for sure. There is so much stress placed on him to make this business work, to someday see a profit(?), perchance to retire?  Who knows.  It has been SIX MONTHS since we have seen each other. On Saturday, we will celebrate our anniversary; well, one of our anniversaries!

So here I am, leaving on a jet plane again in 2 days, to go see my man, to reconnect and recover what our marriage is. Hopefully to forge new bonds, set new goals. Or maybe just remember why we got married. 

 

A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person. ~Mignon McLaughlin

 

Time


I can hardly believe it’s been nearly a year.

A year ago, I was planning a trip to the west coast, a place I had never been. I was going to meet a man I had never met. He was (and remains) mostly vanilla, and that was (and remains) OK with me.

I had created a new life for myself. I had shed both the physical and emotional ties that had held me for so long, and was enjoying a whole new me. Well, mostly new. I was, and still am, held back by my own misgivings and inabilities, both physical and emotional, but I had decided to throw caution to the wind with a laissez faire attitude. In essence, I was daring myself. Would I have the courage to do this?

I did.

In the process, I had to redefine some friendships that I had forged with a couple of people who (fortunately) were understanding and in doing so, made room in my heart for the man who had belonged there all along.

The journey has been filled with ups and downs. The distance sometimes seems insurmountable. The problems sometimes seem unfixable. Nearly 30,000 miles traveled by me alone, always alone. Yes, I travel with him in my heart, but never by my side. Our visits are always full of fun, business, friends, family – but they’re just visits. While the fight continues at a snail’s pace to change the geographic location, the desire remains strong and true.

Next week, we will celebrate one year together ~ short by most definitions of relationships ~ but hopefully a strong foundation for a lifetime of love, acceptance, friendship and comfort.

My love
My love and me at our 2nd wedding in Washington